Sunday, 30 October 2016

Starting anew ;

It has been a while since I last updated this blog. As the picture may speak for itself, I have graduated proudly last summer. With a job secured in Oxford, I have then decided to stay in England and move back to Oxford, where I once called my home away from home. 

Being here at this very moment feels like I have gone back in time, familiar streets, familiar shops. I thought moving back to Oxford would make me feel like I am home again but it did not. I have then realised, this was my home three years ago, not anymore, but not.. 

.. yet. 

I have once called here home away from home cause it was the first city I have settled down in, made new friends and went to bed excited for my awaited adventure the very next day. Today, I do not feel the same as I used to before. Honestly, the first couple of weeks were exciting - first job (no doubt, exciting!); supportive and absolutely lovely colleagues at work; first pay cheque etc.

I was told that I was brave for taking such a huge step in life. I did not understand where they were coming from initially. Then it struck me one day, when I finally understood. Having had to start all over again, it feels like being a fresher in uni all over again, except there isn't any Malaysian society or sports clubs to fall back to.

Walking into a restaurant and requesting a table for one; Struggling to finish a loaf of bread before the the use by date; Having had to decide on one choice of food when I wanted other choices as well. These episodes used to bother me so much that it does not anymore.

'It is your first couple of weeks there!' says papa. With that, I believe that things will get better over time. On this very day, it is definitely much easier than the day before.

Right now, I feel like the tip of a pencil, mapping out my journey to an uncertain end point - hoping for the best. Believe it or not, I do quite like it. Just because I know that there are so many possibilities and opportunities that I may or may not have discovered yet, out there for me. It is an exciting yet a lonely journey. Nevertheless, I am blessed every single day, being given such opportunity in life.

For the past couple of years, I used to have trouble deciding where home is - now I know. Malaysia will always be my home.

Lots of Love,
zhi wei x

Tuesday, 31 May 2016

Hull Bound

Weather in this country never failed to surprise me. It is half way through the summer and here comes storm and somewhat seemed like a tornado. Throwing back to the last September in this post, when I visited Carmen 'cause she told me she missed me. Duh. 

#1 Homemade breakfast
She made us breakfast 'cause we both take our food so damn seriously and she's better at cooking than I am. Trust me, we ate them all.


#2 Exploring the city  
The fact that we can talk for hours and hours without any awkward silences is still a deep mystery to us. To be frank, I did not paid much attention to the history and background about this city. Well, besides the white telephone box they have in the middle of the street. 

Gotta appreciate free drinks for being considerate customers

#3 The English Muse
A lovely cosy café somewhere along a busy street of Newland Avenue. We were gonna go for their afternoon tea, which looked so amazing across the table but pre-booking was needed. Boohoo.

We were smacking each other throughout whilst exploring the city. My first success smack made my day ahahha. Yes, we can be lame people like that. So much love for you baby b.

Lots of love,
zhi wei x